02/23/10
Posted 02-24-2010 at 01:42 AM by John49
Wow, has been quite a while since I have blogged. Usually doesn't even occur to me lately. I am having a really, really tough time right now with depression I guess, I have just felt so down since last week. I had this period when I had a lot more than normal insight on how much has changed with my personality and my abilities and it sent me spiraling down in to a depression I can't seem to pull out of. I called my GP and had an appointment with him today because I also have a virus and he said need to see psychiatrist this week. I had e-mailed my neurologist yesterday and she replied today saying that it was not as much that the disease is causing the depression as it is my emotional reactions to what the disease is doing. She said need to see psychiatrist right away. Saw my psychologist today to see if therapy would maybe help and he ended up saying you are having very real emotions based on very real serious things happening, the psychiatrist needs to help you. Well he just called and said he is totally jammed this week and will have to be next week. That is kind of like having someone let the rest of the air out of the ball when it is already low. But what can I say, I emphasized the urgency and the other doctors saying urgency but he is busy so what do you say, nothing you can say. I just needed to get some of this off my chest. I thought today that is actually such a curse at times to have so much insight, it is like watching a really sad movie only you are the sad part of the story but you are powerless to change how the story goes and how it will inevitably end. 
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John,
It's not easy to be in your situation. Hang in there. We are all here for you. Until you see the psych. come here and share with us. We are ready to listenPosted 02-24-2010 at 02:19 AM by SueG 
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((((((((John))))))))
Are you on the list in case someone cancels?
As Sue has said, we are here for you.Posted 02-24-2010 at 03:08 AM by Lea H
